Procrastination

One of the great things (or bad things - depending on how you look at it) about blogs is that they serve as a good distraction. School has only been in session for one week and I'm already behind in a couple of my classes. I'm not concerned with the reading because I can really do that anytime. I'm always up for reading. But I have two online classes (physics and art) that require me to log on and watch the lecture. I'm not too crazy about that.

The beginning of school is always bitter-sweet for me. I love reading. I love the pursuit of truth. I hate the classes I'm required to take that have nothing to do with my major. I hate how even within my major, my pursuit of truth is so limited, stopping shortly before the greatest truth that can be attained by the human mind: the knowledge of the creator and His will.

My desire to be more "settled" is growing. I don't mean settled in the sense of where I live or how I make money. I mean settled in the sense of being in the circumstance that will really occupy a good portion of my life. I do feel that my desire for a family is being deepened. While I think it's important for me to finish my education, I know that you never really stop learning. I know that I'm going to learn a lot academically this year and I'm going to enjoy it. But what I'm going to learn will have very little bearing on how I conduct my life after I graduate. And that's ok. I'm fine with that. I will continue to intellectually exercise with material and texts that are more focused to how I want to be sharpened and refined. I don't get to read much Jonathan Edwards or William Carey in school.