Today I learned I was admitted into UCSD. This was an interesting discovery considering I wasn't by UCLA or even UCSB (SB was a HUGE surprise). I had pretty much accepted that I was going to CSUN. (Which was fine, don't get me wrong). CSUN is a great blessing. They have a pretty decent English program and it's affordable, AND! it's across the street from our apartment. My hopes were set on UCLA with a second choice of UCSD but things have changed recently. Namely, marriage. And that is the underlying topic of this blog!
Going to UCSD would be amazing for me and my career plans. It would be a great opportunity. But there is something in my life that is a priority over the advancement of a career. To be a faithful and supportive wife is infinitely more important than attending a preferred university. My priority is my husband, not myself.
He is called to faithfully and lovingly lead me in our marriage. I love to submit to his role because he does it biblically. All his decisions are made with consideration to my desires, preferences, and objections. His leadership is not tyrannical but one defined by service, kindness, and understanding. Ultimately, the decision is his and his alone but because of his love for me (a love that is so deeply rooted in Christ), I know that whatever he decides is for our good. And I know that the Lord will bless my submission to him throughout our marriage.
Sergio still has another year at CSUN before he applies to graduate schools. The best thing that could happen is that he gets admitted to UCSD and I reapply (they do not allow admission deference) to UCSD and gain admittance again. Then it's off to San Diego for about two years if that happens. If we have to stay in Northridge, we know that it is the gracious sovereignty of our good Lord and that he has plans for us here, and though we may not know what they are, our hope and confidence is in the faithfulness of our Father to us as his children.
After all, in the end, graduating from CSUN is a far cry from a poor lot in life. We are so blessed as Americans. And as Americans, I think we find and take advantage of every opportunity to complain about something. (Myself, gravely included.... unfortunately). Working on it.
That's life right?
Working on it.
What it means to be a woman, a wife, and a student, from a sinner that's still learning.
Everything happens for a reason, right? Who knows, maybe God has some awesome plan for you and Sergio to live in beautiful San Diego. Although I would hate to see you guys move so far away. I rarely see you as it is.
ReplyDeleteI envy your faith and I wish I could have so much faith so I could stop worrying so much about my future; definitely need more prayer about that.